Blessing Or Curse

OR

Love - Keisha cole

I was talking with a friend the other day and the topic of love came up. In our discussion this comment was made….”Love is like 2 edged sword. It can be the source of great joy, yet the source of great pain. Think bout it love songs can make u happy or sad dependin on your experience.

This got me to thinking..and yall know how much of that I do lol…there’s so much truth in that comment. Love is truly something that has caused me to feel like im on cloud 9 and above but it has also caused me to feel like im cloud 0 is so far above me. Love has caused me to smile to myself..feel like life is good and it can’t get no betta. It’s caused me to lose sleep, not eat, cry and rock myself for comfort…im talking bout that cryin when ur eyes and nose are leakin, lips quivering, wantin ur mommy type of cry lol
…shut up..yall know u’ve been there before lol…but I know if it wasn’t for the bad experiences wit love I wouldn’t know how to appreciate it

Love is something that we all desire but are we truly ready for it? Love is something that grows and develops over time..it should get deeper and more meaningful as time progresses. I’ve had that type of love before…when my every thought is on that other person…when I jus wanna b wit them…when the conversation is so easy and caring is second nature….the long talks, the helping hand, the little things that mean so much….when u and that other person jus wanna be there for each other in everyway possible…when u jus wanna shout out that u love whoever it is…and they feel the same way bout u as u do for them

I miss that

So my fellow bloggers…wut do u think? Is love a blessing, a curse, or a lil of both? Does the bad make u appreciate the good? Are you ready for everything that comes along with it?

Nothin really...jus an update

Wassup people…feels like its been a min since I wrote anything on here but hey..sometimes its like that lol….there really hasn’t been anything new happening on my end so im jus gonna give yall a few updates/thoughts that have been goin on.




Well im STILL stuck in jury duty..ugghhh…but it’s getting a lil better..im able to stay awake a lil longer everytime lol..but trust and believe the sandman still comes and visits me during the long drawn out rah rah rah that goes on…but hey its almost over..jus gotta last for a few more wed. and fri. till mach 6th…that not too far from now right??? Right??? Will somebody agree wit me..hell lie for that matter lol


Work’s actually getting a lil better..haven’t had to cuss anybody out (other than a couple students). My troll of a principal actually asked me to be the tech coordinator for the new school next year in addition to teachin Spanish…sounds great right??? One problem though….who n the hell told her I knew enough about tech/computer/networking and all that other rah rah to be the coordinator..but lemme tell yall..if the position comes with a big enough raise my ass will be reading the Tech/Computer/Networking and all that Other Rah Rah For Dummies book lol





Kicked up the workout routine and that other health crap and my body is def doin some changing…and im lovin it..finally…body fat is down..getting all solid..chest is doin its own thing..legs r tighter..yeah im more motivated now than anything..the only thing I hate is that muscle weighs more than fat…so as the waist line goes down there’s a possibility that the scale may go up…talk about tragic irony lol

Love life is still the same….non existent lol…it’s a damn tragedy but hey….when the time is right it’ll happen right. Thought I had met someone wit the possibility for potential but guess I thought wrong. Oh well…life goes on..jus gotta stay positive and happy…can’t be depressed over things u can’t change right??? Damn did I jus say that (Shut up u 2….u know who u r lol)





Valentines day is damn near tomorrow and it’s a time of year im not looking too forward to…its like the universe’s way of making sure u know ur single..in case u forgot lol. Last year this time I had boyfriend (mind u we broke up like a week later) but due to his work schedule we didn’t get to spend it together…and before him I was with my previous ex for 3 years..and honestly I can’t remember having a V-day that I found special….oh well one day it’ll happen cuz I know im a good man who deserves to be loved and treated in the same way that I treat others DAMMIT!!!!!

Ok enough bout all that cuz if I keep goin imma end up hurtin someone lol…anywhooooo overall I’m feelin pretty good…ive reconnected wit old friends, strengthened current friendships, and I’m almost finished grad school….im gonna keep this positive energy im feeling for as long as possible but I know when I’m feelin down I got those faithful few around me to help pick me up and get me back on the right path again

Wut time is it???

Ecclesiastes 3
1To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

2A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

3A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;

4A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

5A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

6A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

7A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

8A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

The Word has already been blessed but may the Lord add a blessing to the readers of His word.

Ok now outta church boy mode lol...but before i do..do u remember these:

oh choir days lol


These verses of Ecclesiates have always caused me to think. Growing up in the church, it was not uncommon for me to jus pick up the Bible (King James Version) and just read...sometimes when pastor was preachin cuz I didn't wanna listen lol....well these versus have always stuck in my mind. It makes me wonder wut time is it for me..cuz like verse one says "To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven. Kinda makes those sayings like "All good things in time...and good things come to those who wait...and This too shall pass" a lil clearer right? Cuz to every time there is a purpose and to everything a season. I'm pretty sure most of us have been in situations and wondered wut the point/purpose of it was or how long it would last. I wonder wut time it is for me and wuts the purpose of this time? I try to remember that the Lord doesn't put more on us than we can bear..and that I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me..somebody cue the organ and the choir lol

When songs speak do u listen???

Hey people…have u ever noticed when a song speaks to you??? When some artist has expressed exactly how you’ve felt at some moment…of course you have lol…Recently I’ve been listening to the lyrics of some songs and I’m telling you these artists have been speakin to me…When I first got Beyonce’s CD I really jus listened to the singles and the beats of the other songs lol…hell Single Ladies and Diva were/are the shit lol…well about a week or so ago I actually started listening to the lyrics to the last track on Sasha Fierce…Scared of Lonely…when I heard wut B was sayin it was like she had been in my mind/heart when I was going through some issues…and in some cases I feel this song can still apply. Most likely I’ll do a couple more posts similar to this cuz like I said…some songs have been speaking to me…and I may give you the background story about my experiences and these songs. Well here are the lyrics for those of you who don’t know them. Does this song speak to you in anyway? Cuz I know it sure spoke to me lol...if not wut songs have spoken to u?

Scared Of Lonely - Beyoncé

Lyrics to Scared Of Lonely :
I'm in this fight, and I'm swinging and my arms are getting tired
It's hard, I'm trying to beat this emptiness but I'm running out of time
I'm sinking in the sand, and I can barely stand
I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me
I'm scared of lonely
I try to be patient, but I'm hurting deep inside
And I can't keep waiting, I need comfort late at night
And I can't find my way, won't you lead me home
Cause I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me

I'm scared of lonely
And I'm scared of being the only shadow I see along the wall
And I'm scared the only heartbeat I hear beating is my own
And I'm scared of being alone
I can't seem to breathe when I am lost in this dream, I need you to hold me
I'm scared of lonely
I'm scared of lonely.....

I cry at night, 'cause my baby's too far to be by my side
To wipe away these tears of mine, so I hold my pillow tight
To imagine you would stretch your hand looking for mine
'Cause I'm lost in this dream , I need you to hold me

I'm scared of lonely
And I'm scared of being the only shadow I see along the wall
And I'm scared the only heartbeat I hear beating is my own
And I'm scared of being alone
I can't seem to breathe when I am lost in this dream, I need you to hold me

I need your strength when nobody is around
'Cause I'm tired of this emptiness, I think I'm drowning
I can't be lonely no more
Cause I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me

I'm scared of lonely
And I'm scared of being the only shadow I see along the wall
And I'm scared the only heartbeat I hear beating is my own
And I'm scared of being alone
I can't seem to breathe when I am lost in this dream, I need you to hold me
I'm scared of lonely
I'm scared of lonely.....

Jury Duty..not that bad...still not good

Wassup people…thanx for all the jury duty support lol….jury duty is…ummmm….hmmmm….a pain in the ass…u know its bad when id rather be at working teachin the baybay kids lol. I gotta go back in tomorrow for the fourth session…after tomorrow only 11 more to go…oh joy. But honestly it’s not as bad as I thought it would be…now that doesn’t mean it’s good..jus not as bad as I thought. There are some pretty interesting people there but they’re all boring and have no sense of humor. Yall know im a fool and I like to laugh and joke…but these people are dull as hell. I try to get a laugh outta them and they look at me like I got 3 arms and two heads..don’t these people see me tryin to make this shit interesting so I’ll stay awake…don’t interrupt…rude (thanx Bonquiqui lol)


Anyway I sit in the back of the “Grand Jury Room” (doesn’t that sound so important lol) so I can see everybody. Its funny watchin people act like they’re payin attention when they’re really asleep wit their eyes open. They need to be like me and post up and take it down. When shit gets boring my ADD kicks in and I’m all over the place lol. Im textin, drawin, throwin stuff at people to make them think they’re goin crazy lol.


I wish yall could see how I act in there. Ugggggghhhhhh….all I know is that this damn injustice system betta not call on my black ass to do no more damn jury duty….I gotta work on my excuses to get me outta this crap.

They told us when we first started that we are scheduled to be there from 9-4 but if we finish early or there’s only a few cases we can leave early. Last Friday we were lucky to get out at like 12:30 so when we went back on Wed. I jus knew my ass was getting out early again…yeah they had something for my ass…we didn’t get outta there until like 4:40..which meant I got stuck in traffic and didn’t get to the gym till like 6…im soooo over this..all I know is that I hope the gods of jury duty smile on us tomorrow and I get outta there before 3…I got things to do lol.

Jury Duty....Wut In The???

So the right before thanksgiving I get my first jury duty summons in the mail…I’ve never done it before but I’ve heard the horror stories about it so I wasn’t even tryin to do it…so I look on the piece of devil mail for the excuse section and they have the nerve to list the excuses that you can use. So I copy down the excuse that worked for me…it said something like “I am a teacher in a K-12 public educational institution.” So I’m thinking….they can’t have me come to court when it’s durin the regular school year right??? They know that the kids needs theys edujamacation right. So I had smile on my face as I put the devil mail back in the mailbox.

The summons said that if you don’t hear from them then ur excuse was accepted so yall know I wasn’t looking for a letter or a phone call from them. Cuz I jus knew that since sent my letter back so they would leave me alone. Yeaaahhh no…yall know these jerks sent me a letter in all caps…like Satan himself was speakin YOUR REQUEST HAS BEEN DENIED YOU WILL REPORT ON JAN 14TH AT 8:45….so yall know I was pissed about that….wut in the damn injustice system….not only did they deny my request but then had the nerve to tell me when to show up.

So I had to put a master plan into effect of how to get outta it….well I knew that every excuse I thought of wouldn’t work…so I show up yesterday morning and there were like 75 people there..I heard they only needed 23 jurors so I jus knew I was gonna get picked…yeaaaahhhh no..yall know I was the fourth person called to be a juror…I damn near cried when they called my name….uggghhhh

So for those of u who have had jury duty before know the part when the judge asks u a bunch of questions to see if you can actually serve….well I raised my hand a couple of times and the judge said he wanted to see me for a sidebar convo….so after talking to him and tryin to figure out how I can get this man to let me off the hook…I ended up telling him that I hated the cops lol..I wish yall coulda seen his face….how the hell did I tell Your Honor that I hated cops while I was surrounded by the police…lol…I jus knew that would get me outta jury duty….yeaaaaahhh noooooo..they told me to sit my black ass back wit the rest of the jurors.

So after being picked to serve as a grand juror (oh joy) they put us thru orientation and I swear the many wouldn’t shut the hell up…how the hell can I fall asleep and wake up and his ass was still talking…ummmm helloooooo….SHUT THE HELL UP MAN!!!!!!!!!! They told us that we would have to serve jury duty every wed and fri from 9-4 until march 6th….wut the hell kinda devil work is this…don’t they understand that I’m a teacher and if im not in school the kids don’t learn..if the kids don’t learn they can’t pass the tests..if they fail the district looks at me….can we say bullshit….im telling u it’s the injustice system….I have a feeling that Imma have some stories for yall from this bullshit…pray for me...case dismissed lol

Vodka.....Too Good Not To Share....

Hey yall...my momma sent me this and I had to share lol

Definitely a waste of good Vodka………
Who knew?!!!!
1. To remove a bandage painlessly,


saturate the bandage with vodka.
The stuff dissolves adhesive.

2. To clean the caulking around bathtubs and showers,
fill a trigger-spray bottle with vodka, spray the caulking,
let set five minutes and wash clean.


The alcohol in the vodka kills mold and mildew.

3. To clean your eyeglasses,


simply wipe the lenses with a soft,
clean cloth dampened with vodka.
The alcohol in the vodka cleans the glass and kills germs.

4. Prolong the life of razors by filling a cup with vodka
and letting your safety razor blade
soak in the alcohol after shaving.


The vodka disinfects the blade and prevents rusting.

5. Spray vodka on wine stains,


scrub with a brush, and then blot dry.

6. Using a cotton ball, apply vodka to your face


as an astringent to cleanse the skin and tighten pores.

7. Add a jigger of vodka to a 12-ounce bottle of shampoo.


The alcohol cleanses the scalp, removes toxins from hair,
and stimulates the growth of healthy hair.

8. Fill a sixteen-ounce trigger-spray bottle with vodka


and spray bees or wasps to kill them.

9 Pour one-half cup vodka


and one-half cup water into a Ziploc freezer bag

and freeze for a slushy, refreshing ice pack for aches,
pain or black eyes.

10. Fill a clean, used mayonnaise jar
with freshly packed lavender flowers,


fill the jar with vodka, seal the lid tightly
and set in the sun for three days.
Strain liquid through a coffee filter,
then apply the tincture to aches and pains.

11. To relieve a fever, use a washcloth


to rub vodka on your chest and back as a liniment.

12. To cure foot odor,


wash your feet with vodka.

13 Vodka will disinfect


and alleviate a jellyfish sting.

14. Pour vodka over an area affected with poison ivy


to remove the urushiol oil from your skin.

15. Swish a shot of vodka over an aching tooth.


Allow your gums to absorb some of the alcohol to numb the pain.




And silly me!
I've only been drinking the stuff.