Wednesday, November 26, 2008

From the desk of Twin...

From the desk of Twin:

Well tomorrow is thanksgiving and before we all leave work early and prepare to stuff ourselves beyond reason I jus wanted to say wut im thankful for.

Its funny how life for me has changed from last year. People I used to hang wit and talk to on a daily basis really aren't a part of my life anymore...guess they weren't tru friends right?? Well from those "friendships" I've learned and reevaluated different aspects of myself and those I consider friends. I tend to not use the term friend too often because a friend to me is someonw who is close to my heart. Someone I can truly be myself with and talk to about anything/everything. Someone I can trust...someone who doesn't mind dong the same offering the same as I do n out friendship.

With that being truly thankful and grateful for the people n my life I consider friends...and yall know who yall r (The Crew lol). I've had some deep serious talks with each of u at different points...bugged out and laughed wit u...even created some new drinks and cooked while talkin bout...ummm...wutever we were talkin bout lol.

Each one of u has helped me become the person I am today. Someone who is more confident and comfortable with who they are...someone who now knows its ok to let the "wall" down at times and truly be urself. Soooo I jus wanted to say thank you for being there for me...thanx for the laughs...thanx for the hugs...thanx for the shoulder to lean (and at times cry) on...thanx for the words of encouragement ...thanx for trusting me...thanx for letting me trust u...thanx for helping me understand myself and become a better person...thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I have a strong feeling that the connections/friendships I've made are the ones that will stay with me throughout my life. I look forward to sharing many moment of my life wit yall...the ups and downs...the good and bad...shit that only we can laugh at...then laugh at everyone else cuz they have no idea wuts goin on lol. I luv yall....from the heart.

May God continue to bless, keep, protect, fortify each of u and strengthen our individual and collective bonds.

Enjoy ur thanksgiving my fellow bloggers.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Thoughts...Past & Present

Wassup blogworld...this may be a lil long but this is a post that took some time to write lol...if u can make it to the end....congrats and comments are apprecated...well these past few weeks have been quite eventful..been feelin all types of ways different's an update

Well work has been a pain n the ass as usual lol. How bout I was standin n front of the building at the end of the day wit my jacket and fitted on and the principal comes slinkin out her office (lemme make a point was over) on her way out the door. I see shes lookin me up and down wit the look of utter disgust me being my nice and kind self (Shut up!!!) I speak and say "Have a nice day and enjoy ur day off" Yall know wut this troll said??? "Mmmhmm u too" Then she asks the security guard that was sittin next to us to walk her to the door...after he does that he comes back and tells me that she was goin on about how unprofessional it was for me to have on a hat..and how I look like a student..and rah rah rah. Now normally I woulda jus ignored it but got to thinkin...this troll has the audacity to worry bout my hat when there are tons of other things for her to worry y I don't have a classroom...or y don't I have enough materials...or y do kids skip class and nothin happens to them.

So I jus thought and kept it to myself....that is until the next day of work when 3 other people came up to me sayin the principal was talkin bout me to them...come on now is this preschool...aren't we all grown...don't I do my job despite all the setbacks...that bitch can kick rocks in flip flops for all the hell I care.

Then to make matters worse...I find out that this teacher I share a room wit threw out all the textbooks the kids use...I only have about 25 books for all my middle school students...and the crazy thing is...this muthafucka admitted to throwin them out cuz the kids left them under the desks instead of puttin them back...WUT THE HELL?!?!?! So I report this shit to the vice principal and she says that this isn't the first time that teacher has done that...WUT THE HELL?!?!? Since when can u jus throw books out and not have any consequences???

Then they give us the scan sheets to do report cards last Friday and they wanted them completed on Monday…now that wouldn’t have been that much of a problem if I didn’t have over 100 student grades to calculate and bubble in. Come on now..have a damn heart…evil bastards lol.

Lately I've been feelin a lil aggrevated and frustrated wit the way my luv life (or should I say lack thereof) has been going...the following is something I wrote a few weeks back but never posted and only shared wit a few people:

How do u react when everyone around u is happy but u???? It seems like everyone else is on cloud 9...yet ur on the ground floor... U watch those around u experiencing the joy of havin someone wit them...a boyfriend or a boo...or jus a boy for the min???

I've been wonderin this for a while not hatin on my people for havin someone n their lives they can share special moments with....someone who they can call and lean on when their havin a rough day or jus wanna vent...Im happy for jus makes me wonder when will it be my time???

I've been single for some time now and im sooo tired of startin to think somethin may be wrong wit me...I dunno.... On second thought...nah…no way jus seems like whenever im feelin someone they're not feelin me for wutever reason....and the thing is...I wanna know the reason so I can adjust wutever the "turn off" factor is...its like im constantly subjectiin myself to bein hurt....but maybe its partly my fault....grrrrrrr...but hopefully ill get over time right??? uggghhh

Im not the most together guy there is...but im doin pretty learnin more about myself and growin from it...I have a career, my own place, car, and strivin for a loyal and dedicated and honest person...but I guess those things r turn offs for makes me think...hmmmm

Im jus aggrevated right tryin to stay positive but the shit gets harder every day...when will it be my time??? When will I stop fallin for the guys that don't wanna deal wit me on that level? When will I find the guy that's as crazy for me as I am for him? So many questions...but yet no jus frustrated, aggrevated, and tired of the bull....I need a drink and a cigarette...maybe thatll bring some clarity...if not at least ill feel better

Returnin back to the present.....Well now that I've got that out...I feel a lil better...well other than bein horny as hell...haven't had sex in a while and its startin to take its toll lol... guess im glowin like a nite light lol

I've been called the most conservative out the group lol so I don't do random hookups or anythin like that....if I kiss someone or do anything further wit a dude I've known him for awhile....but thas not even happenin right now...ugghh...wuts a guy to jus waitin for the right guy...even though I got someone on my mind gets a lil depressin at times but ill manage....I have hope that things will work out fine…maybe this is a time when I should focus on other things like work and other rah rah (but I think ive done that enough lol)

Well this week is almost over and im plottin for the weekend thinkin bout havin the crew over for some movies, drinks, and some eats...but I guess time will tell lol. Of course imma have to finish school work before I can relax. Wut yall got planned for the weekend??? Anything interesting?

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

The Power of a Kiss

Sealed wit a kiss...

Have u ever thought about ur last kiss? Wut were u feeling as u did it? Wut feelings were being passed to u? Wut feelings were u passing?

The power of a kiss is something that people sometimes fail to realize. The emotion, passion, love, and n some cases lust (or horniness lol) is something that can ake ur breath away.

A kiss can be the can seal a can be the can be one of the greatest moments yet one of the saddest at the same time....a kiss can say can say good can say uve been can say don't can say wut u can't find the words for...its amazing how one action can say so much.

Personally I love kissing although I don't do it much lol ::thinkin:: thas not really funny...kinda sad when u think bout it lol...but anyway....I like being kissed...starts off slow...gentle...warm...but given the time and the moment it takes on a life of its own. I've had kisses leave me breathless right before I took his breath away...I've been kissed and had chills sent thru my body as I grabbed the back of his head and go n for the kill...I've had kisses start off as kisses but ended up wit us havin hickies and sore necks lol...I've been kissed and have kissed that have.....ok lemme stop and catch my breath and relax ::clears throat and sips some water::

So like I was sayin....a lot can be said and felt n a kiss...wut bout yall? Ever had that kiss that left u wantin more? That kiss u never wanted to end? Wut were u feelin and were tryin to get that other person to feel?

Friday, November 7, 2008

20 Ways To Maintain A Healthy Level Of Insanity

This was sent to me and made me laugh...wanted to share wit yall..hopefully u will get a smile outta it.

20 Ways To Maintain A Healthy Level Of Insanity

1.At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and point a hair dryer at passing cars. See If They Slow Down.

2.Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice.

3.Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, ask If They Want Fries with that.

4.Put Your Garbage Can On Your Desk And Label it 'In'.

5.Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks Once Everyone has Gotten Over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch to Espresso.

6.In The Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write 'For Smuggling Diamonds'.

7.Finish All Your sentences with 'In Accordance With The Prophecy'.

8.Don't use any punctuation.

9.As Often As Possible, Skip Rather Than Walk.

10.Order a Diet Water whenever you go out to eat, with a serious face.

11.Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is 'To Go'.

12.Sing Along At The Opera.

13.Go To A Poetry Recital. And Ask Why The Poems Don't Rhyme?

14.Put Mosquito Netting Around Your Work Area and Play tropical Sounds All Day.

15.Five Days In Advance, Tell Your Friends You Can't Attend Their Party Because You're Not In the Mood.

16.Have Your Co-workers Address You By Your Wrestling Name, Rock Bottom.

17.When The Money Comes Out The ATM, Scream 'I Won! I Won!'

18.When Leaving The Zoo, start Running Towards The Parking lot, Yelling 'Run For Your Lives! They're Loose!'

19.Tell Your Children Over Dinner , 'Due To The Economy , We Are Going To Have To Let One Of You Go.'

20.And The Final Way To Keep A Healthy Level Of Insanity .. Send This E-mail To Someone To Make Them Smile. Its Called ... therapy...

Happy Friday people...anyone have anything planned???

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

When I See U....

Wrote this awhile september...thought id share

When I see u I see more than wuts on the outside.
I see the passion that u hold within.
I see the dedication and determination of someone who has limitless potential....
I see someone, who like me, had to grow up fast and learn how to be independent early.

I see the gentle, loving, and caring person that's within.
I see someone who cares for others and sacrifices for them...
I see someone who holds things in but knows how to let things out...
I see someone who can make me smile without saying a word.

I see more than wuts on the surface....
where others see shallowness in u I see depth...
I see the deep thoughts that pass thru ur mind.
I see nothin but the best for u...
I see more n u and for u than I can say.

Do u see it too??? I wonder...

Monday, November 3, 2008

Party Pics...

As are some of the pics from the party last week...