Thursday, May 21, 2009

Sometimes I Wanna Black...

Hey blog world,




Sometimes I wonder if people could really take it if I truly went the hell off...I mean I usually say wuts on my mind, to a certain extent anyway, but I usually tone things down a bit. I'm the type that tries to say wut I mean and mean wut I say but at the same time I don't wanna come across too harsh, abrassive, or down right evil..cuz trust me I can be that way a times. So I try to dillute my actual thoughts to come across as civil but at the same time make a point.

In doing all of this dilluting and watering down, sometimes I feel like the tru meaning of my message may get lost and the acutal "fury" that I wanna get across jus doesn't. And where does that leave me????? most likely back at square one. Guess I'm trying to spare people's feelings.

Cuz I feel if I truly jus exploded like I want to, and trust me I've been fightin the urge to do it, I might loose some friends, my job, family members, and probably some other things. But friends are supposed to be there and accept wut u have to say regardless right??? But I don't think that would be the case...cuz like I said, if I truly went the hell off and told people about themselves, or what I actually thought about the way they handled their affairs, or how they've wronged me, or bout their empty or broken promises, or about being let down, or about their bitchassness (thought I would never use that word lol), or their lies, or whatever else it may be, I think I would come across as that EVIL, MALICIOUS, BLACK-HEARTED SCORPIO....but ummm maybe that's wut I need to do (jus a thought).

Maybe its the luv I have for these people that keeps me from goin off and havin a Madea moment
...hmmm jus a thought..wut do yall think???

7 comments:

fuzzy said...

oh i feel you on this. we seeing eye to eye on this one! for real for real! i just wanna rip a select 6 people from head to toe. give them a new asshole after i wore out the old one and burn their rntire face off with acid. id feel better after that... i might be less a coupla friends, but i might be of the logic, who cares? if they bounce, they bounce. but thats my anger talking...

D-Place said...

I found myself feeling just like this many times. I learned even if you do go off (which I still haven't stopped doing that) people are going to do you how they want to. So when you see they are not treating you right try not to go off. Instead let go of their asses. They'll need you before you need them.

thegayte-keeper said...

you can let ppl know what you feel with getting Madea's gun...I know it is hard sometimes but you can't take them into your self-esteem

Oyin said...

boy you better tell it like it T I is

kpong said...

We all feel that way (black, white, yellow and everything in between). But we also have to think about the repercussions of doing so. Hence writing being this amazing outlet for all of us. I applaud you for your honesty, but I have to say that toning it down is best (most times). Unless you can handle the fall out. Because words are magical things. Once you release them into the air you can NEVER take them back. Ya know?

Ty said...

I feel you in so many levels of this post. LMAO at a Madea moment.

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